Happy New Year

The end of 2009 is upon us. What a year it's been. If you had asked me on December 31st of 2008 if I thought I'd be a single parent this time next year I don't think I would have believed you. This time last year I was incredibly depressed and stuck in the mindset that my life was what it was and I just needed to accept it. As much as I told myself that, that inner voice inside me kept fighting those words, and thank GOD that voice was louder than mine. At the beginning of 2009 I don't think I had ever been more unsure scared terrified in my entire life. It's amazing how much of a difference a year can make in your life. 2009 has led me to discover a strength in me that I didn't know I had and I don't know if I would have ever found it if I had stayed where I was. 2009 has taken me on a journey that definitely had it's ups and downs, but without both I wouldn't be who I am now. Looking forward on 2010 I think it's important to look back. As we all gear up to make long lists of changes we want to see, we should look back on the changes we should have made. Mahatma Gandhi said "Be the change you want to see in the world". I think that is all the resolution we need.

Tonight I will be spending New Year's Eve at home with my children. Not out celebrating, not out drinking the night away, and it's not because I can't find a babysitter. Tonight I'm spending the evening with the people who matter the most in my world. I will spend the next year slowing down and paying more attention, finishing what I started, and being the change I want to see in the world.

Happy New Year :)